so i was right, you were angry at me. all the more i'll stay hungry, knowing that you cant be there to reassure me anymore. even though you dont know of the existence of this blog, this are the words that my mind longs to speak:

hey, i didnt mean to piss you off, how was i supposed to know that a simple joke could make you so angry? but then, i guess i shouldve followed my instincts, cos when ling said "no, its 23rd la!" i kind of thought, that you might have panicked upon seeing the false date. and i dont know if you did, but im sorry. i understand that your door is chained at the moment, but please dont stay mad at me, it'll mean alot if you accepted my apology, but i guess youre not ready to at the moment. and about the message last night, yes it was an excuse, why? cos i just wanted to see my phone lighting up with your text, to let me know that youre okay even if im not. thank you. the day and night of hunger was worth it.